Comedians and Relationships

Rok and I found a new comedian last night, Daniel Sloss. Now he is not my favorite comedian but he had some good stuff that made me laugh and other stuff that made me think. The latter mainly came in his second special we watched, which made it all the weirder because the first special and the first half of the second special were not that thought provoking. It was very similar to Jim Jefferies where he has two really good political comedy bits about gun control and immigration, but a lot of his material is about poop as he says in all of his specials apologizing for his gun control bit. Sloss was similar to that with me when he started talking about love and relationships. He told us about the jigsaw puzzle analogy his dad came up with to try to explain the meaning of life to an asshole kid. Where the puzzles four sides are family, friends, career and hobbies, and the inside his dad said was the partner piece. Then Sloss talked about how society makes us think we need to be with someone to be whole and his dads analogy made him believe the same. Then after a little bit into this bit that I hadn't really laughed at Sloss said that if you are finding it hard to laugh at this bit then you probably aren't in love with the person you are with. Which gave me pause as Rok let out a laugh and I remained silent. It wasn't haven't troubling laughing I just wasn't laughing, so I think this was mostly due to how out of nowhere this bit was, it took me by surprise and I was more fascinated by the opinions he was presenting as such solid facts. In his first special that we watched just before this one he talked about being drunk out of his mind and putting mouthwash on his penis because a girl was willing to have sex with him. So it took me by surprise that he was suddenly talking about good dating advice. So I think that is the reason that I didn't really laugh, I was so absorbed with what he was saying I didn't process the joke bits of his bit, it was so fascinating to me. But in that bit he said that if you don't love 100% of him he doesn't need to be with you, because what you love is a fabricated version of him that you want him to be. And Rok and I thought about it and we don't think we love 100% of each other, but we do think we love 98-99% and that last percent or two are things that we don't necessarily want the other person to change and we don't hate that last couple percentages we just don't love them. So we think we are probably not going to add to the 72 couples (at the time of that special) that he has broken up with this comedy routine.


Today I weighed: 210.1 lbs


Yesterday I ate:
>Two bites of a mayo sandwich with some egg in it
>A bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch
>Two black bean burger sliders with biscuit buns
> Two small tomatoes
>Two grilled cheeses


Yesterday I drank: 74 oz of water


Sloss did bring up that you have to learn to love yourself before you can be in a relationship, something Rok continuously brings up and I continuously tell him I know. But Sloss is right to an extent that I feel an a personal level, when I was 16 I settled for a boy I knew liked me even though I wasn't really into him, because I didn't want to be alone and he loved me more than I loved myself. And that relationship was seriously messed and not healthy by any stretch of the imagination. I should have taken the time to really get to love myself before dating Rok but he was the catalyst that made me really realize I couldn't keep up dating my ex and so I started dating Rok instead. And while I should have taken the time to really learn to love myself, Rok has helped me enormously with that and I think I love myself far more now than I ever have. I don't love myself 100% yet but I am working on the things I don't love about me so I can be a better human being and really love who I am.


Stay cool.