Future Uncertainty

Rok and I have recently thought about getting a loan to go to a year course for welding. This loan would be used to let us quit our jobs and still pay rent and have money left over for food, our pets, gas and things like that. While not working for a year would be awesome and we could use the time to work on ourselves and the things we really want to do with our lives, there is always the uncertainty that we wouldn't have a job at the end of that year. And what if some huge expense happens that we didn't predict while we are jobless. There is also the question of moving, we want to move out of the current place we are living with roommates and move so it is just us. And I am not sure if the place we want to move would except us without a job, plus even if they let us in knowing about the student loan money for paying rent, we don't know how much the deposit will be or how much rent would go up with the move so we can't necessarily figure out an amount reasonable for the loan. I do feel like we are just wasting our lives right now, it is already Wednesday and it feels like no time since last Wednesday. Right now I feel like I am just waiting for something to happen to me, like each day is just something to get passed in order to eventually get to somewhere I want to be. But I don't know if welding is the answer to these never-ending days of nothing exciting or important.


Today I weighed: 209 lbs


Yesterday I ate:
> A small bowl of Cheerios
> Four Twix bars
> ~1 cup of pasta
> A yogurt cut
> One beyond burger burger
> A bowl of Cheerios


Yesterday I drank: 88 oz of water


There is a lot to consider about all of this and it is all so scary and frustrating and stressful all rolled into one choice to make. So while I ponder my future please anyone and everyone who reads this:


Stay Cool.