Am I a Reasonable Person? (Revisted)

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A while ago I blogged asking the question "Am I a reasonable person?" I still don't know the answer but I think it is in the affirmative. I was thinking about this as I have been editing the Gods campaign for a new group, the campaign that was the vessel that got me to question in the first place. If you haven't read that blog, I basically bit off more than I could chew with one of our friend groups by trying to GM an advanced level group. Three of the five players had a very mentally taxing way of playing RPGs, which is valid in it's own and I don't want them to change their ways. But I am not a strong enough GM to handle three types like that, I don't know if I could even handle one. But anyway back to the point, because I couldn't handle the three of them I blew up when I shouldn't have.

So fast forward a couple months and I have barely talked to any of them outside of saying "Hi", to the one that still works with us, in the halls. The day after I blew up I messaged them saying I was sorry, the only one to respond was the one we work with. She texted me with tips to help be a better GM. A couple weeks ago another player texted me saying he didn't like how things ended and we had a little back and forth where he expressed his thoughts and I made mine as clear as I feel I could have to him. We left on a better note but haven't talked since then. I feel the responsibility is on my part about that since he messaged me a link to an article that I kept meaning to read but haven't gotten around to it yet and now I feel weird about responding. But anyway, the last player has not said anything to me, and he didn't really the night I blew up either. Where the other two players I mentioned in this blog tried to understand why I was yelling. I think the last player has shut me out entirely, which I feel he might have been looking for a reason to do so before that incident. I feel at some level he didn't really like me to begin with and my actions both that night and before didn't convince him any different. So since I have had minimal input from the people around me, I feel that the responses I have had and the thoughts I had about it show that I am a mostly reasonable person. But no one is reasonable all the time, I think.

Today I weighed: 206.7 lbs

Yesterday I ate:
> A bowl of Cheerios
> Several sesame chick'n bites
> Several chopstick bites of fried rice
> A couple bites of chow mien
> A bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch Cereal

Yesterday I drank: Little water my dudes

I think most people aren't reasonable all the time, I just wish that one of my moments that I wasn't didn't cause me to lose some of my friends. As I have said before and will continue saying, in my stead please:

Stay cool.

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